I know...it's been three weeks...
Trust me... I know.
Please don't think that I have forgotten you, my lovely friends.
I really really want to get back into the swing of things.
Things are still not right within my family...within my life...
this is one of those times when you are trying to look through the clouds to see the sunshine peeking through.
I'm trying hard to remember that there IS sunny days ahead... a brighter future...
but right now that picture is incredibly fuzzy.
I know only a few things for certian right now...because everything else is so uncertian...
1. God is good...even when things are horrible. Nothing is beyond His amazing power... even in my suffering, I see His hands at work in our lives. My heart hurts and my life is in chaotic pieces but I have an amazing Savior that holds it all in His hands and promises to put it back together, even better than before.
What more can we ask for than that?
He promises to carry us when things become too hard... and I know for a fact that His promise to do that holds true.
For He is carrying me now.
2. I have friends and family that are enormous blessings. I could not have made it, be making it, through these tumultuous weeks without them. They are helping me set my feet on solid ground and keep on walking even when it seems near impossible.
3. I have hope. God promises that if we put our hope in Him, He will give us a peace that transends all understanding. I know that His will is going to prevail and I know that He loves me, my husband and my little boy more than we could imagine. With Him, there is always hope. Always.
4. I love the one who is hurting me so. It's hard to see that in writing. But it is true. My commitment to you is there. My love for you will never end, no matter what happens. My heart breaks but it continues on... and I will never give up fighting.
If you will, continue praying for my family.
I promise I will return... I'm trying to sift through things to find my inspiration again :)