I am just plain discouraged.
I really was all hyped up this week...I thought 'yea! This is the week to get back into the blogging swing of things! I can so do this'
This has been a hell of a week, excuse the phrase.
I start classes for the fall tomorrow. My first official year in OT school...bought all my huge books today and I'm staring at them thinking 'No way can I do this'
In my crazy head, I thought all my life chaos would be sorted out before classes started. Needless to say, nothing has changed and I am disheartened.
I have been on an emotional roller coast these past five weeks and I just want to get off. I want a break... I want life to start being fair. I want my life to just be back to normal.
Instead I'm starting hardcore classes tomorrow, juggling a three-year old and a messy house. I have appointments mixed in everywhere and a class starting next week at a church that is geared towards helping me deal with the chaotic hurt going on in my life.
I feel lost in the midst of things, dear friends.
I feel discouraged and let down... confused and completely overwhelmed.
In essence, I just hurt.
This song has gotten me through the week:
Pray for me and my family if you would.
As broken as I am, I'm trying to fight for us.
Sorry for being the world's worst blogger lately... it'll change.